"Please turn off all cell phones during the test, if your cell phone rings you will be asked to leave the testing facility." I reached down into my backpack and turned off my cell phone then settled back into my chair to begin the test. I completed the first round of testing, and then the second, I was halfway through the third round of testing when, in a moment that sinks my stomach simply thinking about it, my cell phone rang. Looking back at it, I should have seen it coming. After all, my phone had been malfunctioning and doing funky stuff all week, I just never imagined that it would decide to do it in this moment. I felt my heart drop, my shaking hands turned off the alarm as I looked up with wide eyes at the supervisor. "Please leave." he said simply, I fought back tears as I gathered my belongings and walked out of the room. When I got into the car the tears I fought to contain burst and wouldn't stop. I went home and immediately called my friend who comforted me as I sobbed uncontrollably.
It is not even a week later, the wound is still fresh in some ways, however, the lesson is still in my head as well. The Lord has a way of showing us that his plan is greater than our own. I sat in church that evening and the pastor was speaking about when "God interrupts your life" and I sat in the chair and I laughed to myself. I laughed that I had been foolish enough to attempt to make God do as I asked, I laughed that I had tried to make God fit into my life, instead of making my life fit into God's plan.
I opened my hands and said "Take it, God, take my plans, I trust you." and now, I find peace. As my pastor concluded his message, he left me with a thought, "When your plans are more important than God's plans, you are not in the center of God's will."
Are you in the center of God's will?
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